What Am I? And Gimme MSN's Ladies!!

Hello Beauties,

THANKYOU FOR ALL YOUR LOVELY COMMENTS TOO, THEY MEAN SO MUCH <3

         Well today hasn't really been that much of an eventful day! I tell you what though, i defiantly burned lots of calories! :) I cleaned the entire house :D With next to no food inside me. 

I must of eaten less than 800 calories today :) Maybe even less!

Food intake:

-Teeny bowl of cereal-150 cals(ish)

-Small bowl of beans-160 calories

-Dinner- Around 300 calories, maybe less as i didn't eat hardly anything!

       I feel too full now :(

So many people are saying i have an ED. But thing is, i don't want to believe it. 

 CW: 93lbs

-Some days which i like to call "Normal" days, i still enjoy eating...but a whole load of guilt and self hate soon follows. 

-I love to restrict, just simply because it makes me feel good.

 -The less i eat the better i feel. 

-When i binge the voices in my head get louder, i sometimes feel suicidal, the urge to cut is so intense it's sometimes unreal.

-I don't think i'm fat...i just think i could afford to lose a few pounds...although sometimes i actually do feel fat..=/

- I think about food ALOT. 

-If i can't be in control over what i eat ( Going over a friends ETC) i feel like shit and worry about the calories.

- I count the calories in everything possible.

-I've ttried throwing up food before..but failed..so i give up on that aspect now.

What does all this add up to???

P.S: I know i've said this before, but send me your MSN's if you have them, i'd love to talk x

Astra x