Empty At Last! :) And New Followers =]

Hello beautiful people x

       I think i will start with last night...after i finished blogging i suddenly felt terrible...i ate a chocolate bar and that quite simply pushed me over the edge. I had done so well..and then ruined it all. So...i cut. and cut..and cut. Until the guilt went away. They were only superficial ones..i did manage to control how deep i went at least. God i felt so shit this morning when i looked. I always do it on my arms..and yes i know! The most stupid place to do it... but it's the only place where i feel relief =/ I was going to start on my thighs where no one could see...but didn't in the end...to be honest with you i was too depressed to even move an inch.

            But that was yesterday, this is today! And i did manage to pluck up the energy to go out with my friend. And.........went to Costa >__> I couldn't resist a hot chocolate...WITH added whipped cream AND marshmallows. SHOOT ME.?

BUT!! I did end up leaving half :) I couldn't stand the thought of ruining a new day!

And OH MY GOD!!!  After Costa, we ended up going to a tattoo shop, as i wanted to inquire about prices...OH MY GOD!!! I haven't told you about the most amazing, hot hot hot!!!! GORGEOUS!!!!!! guy that works there!!!! He is the most amazing looking guy to grace this planet let me tell you!! *DROOLS* I swear..when i was speaking to him i felt myself going red! HAHA!! Loadsa piercings, tattoos, gorgeous hair, and the most beautiful bright blue eyes ever!!! I LOVE blue eyes :) ( I have them too ;] )...i could go on all day about how gorgeous he is! £35 for 2 little tattoos though!...but to be honest..it's worth it if he does them!!

I was literally drooling when i walked out of there...i mean i have seen him before when i went with a friend to get her tongue bar changed..but never spoken to him! ...Gahhh...i sound like a little school girl! XD

      And also got myself a new warm cardigan :)

           Right enough of that! i'm very pleased with myself too! 

Food intake for today:

-Few mouthfuls of breakfast ( To get metabolism going)

-That awful hot chocolate.

-A couple bits of chicken ( Like 4 little mouthfuls?)

And thats it! :) My stomach is rumbling as i type this, and it feels so so good. It's now....8:55pm :)

I may have to eat a little something later though...my mum keeps going on...=/

I WILL NOT BE CONTROLLED BY FOOD!!
I WILL CONTROL WHAT I EAT AND WHEN!!!
So FUCK YOU FOOD! :)

           I have college tomorrow too...CBA. I swear i'm gonna get a lecture about not going to that counseling this morning. Ahhh...i just cba to put on a fake smile anymore. Seriously! 

Plus i'm due for a visit from the therapists tomorrow....oh the joy.

I hope all is well with all of you x

All my love, Astra x

P.S: New followers, send me links, it wont let me go on your blogs :(