"There's A Comfort In Being Sad" I Can't Handle This Anymore.

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Well.........i don't really have much to write about at the moment....

Today has been a slow day, a sad, slow day.

Maybe about 600 calories consumed today?

Thing is....earlier my mum came home with a bunch load of doughnuts, cakes and fizz!

I CANNOT resist this.

They have been sitting in the kitchen for hours.....waiting.....waiting... o.O

I'm tending not to count calories, unless i feel i really have to, because i think i'm getting to the weight i want. When i lay down straight, i can feel my stomach con-caving and i can feel my ribs!

It's wonderful.

Don't get me wrong...i still completely hate myself...but, thats a start right?

It's getting so easy not to eat now, it's a little scary.

I think my self control is coming back, bit by bit.

The depression wasn't so bad today, simply because perhaps i haven't looked in the mirror all day.

Like i said, i haven't really got anything exciting to say :(

I'm sorry, i'll write again once something happens???

Astra x


UPDATE: 
FUCK HIM FUCK HIM FUCK HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
S and i were txting earlier, talking about trying again...and that he still loved me. 
Now i find out his been talking with his mate about a party, and saying how his met this "stunning girl" on his college course, and going on about how he wants "chicks" coz he wants to get laid.

WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel horrible....
I want to cut. I want to purge. I want to die.
I can't handle anymore bad stuff...i just can't. 
My heart is ripped in two.
I HATE love i fucking hate it!
I can't handle feeling this low anymore.

I HATE MYSELF.