Just Need Peace, Some Solace?

So today i just feel  like crap.

Even retail therapy didn't make a difference, it just made a bigger hole in my pocket.

Now i'm more broke!

I just want peace. I want peace from my mind and my thoughts, my mind is just racing all the time, it won't stop.

I can feel myself getting sucked into depression again, into the darkness.

It's like a big pool of black tar, sucking me deeper and deeper.

I feel like i'm dying slowly again...i haven't felt these feelings for so long, now they have made a return. I feel like bit by bit the depression is eating me from the inside out.

It's mentally killing me.

I feel like taking a bunch of pills to just make me sleep.

My OCD behaviours are getting worse too, i can't even physically relax anymore.

I'm constantly doing things over and over about 5 times or more.

There's no escape from this.

I'm my own worst enemy.

I just want someone to take this away, i feel like i'm suffocating.

I feel so alone in all of this, no matter how many people surround me, i feel so so alone.

The voices tell me i'm alone, no one cares, to kill myself, over and over.

I'm sick of feeling.

Someone put me out of my misery??????